I dont know anymore....

After being absent for more then a week, I went back on wednesday to work. I wasnt allowed to go back to my own place but had to come up to the boss.

Lets say my convo with him was heated and emotional. I dont know what they want from me. My coworkers instead of asking how to deal with the problem they go behind my back and complain to the boss they cant work with me.

Do I feel betrayed? Yes. I had a right to get mad that monday 2 weeks ago. I've been shoved into a corner since last year. Had to compete getting work or else I had nothing to do besides sit there with 2 fingers up my nose. And that monday was the last straw. I said in a hard tone of voice, its always the same shit here and threw my drawer shut. Now every body is scared of me....lol.

I hate it there now, well I disliked it before but I really hate it now. Can I go somewhere else? No. This economic crisis is limiting my job options.
Start a new college degree? Of what money? I live on my own and most of my money goes to living and paying my damn bills. And I am too old to get a student loan anymore. Yep they limit it to 26 years ^^.

For now I am stuck in a place I dislike.

I emailed my boss about the feelings I have, and figure this. He hasnt replied yet lol.

Ah well such is life. I am happy to say my personal life has been much better. I dont loose my temper anymore and get along way better with my parents (esp. dad) then before. So whats the problem with work then, I dont get it.

Ratjes! Why dont you sit still when I try to take your photo ; ;

The spring is my love

Time goes by slowly

Where is my loved one? I've been holding on to this clock which he gave to me. One day I will return to you, he has said when he kissed me goodbye. Why must my heart suffer so long without him.

Time to read again.

While insomnia hits time to read again my discworld novels. How I love these books, think I read them about 6 times already.

Conflict....

It's been a while since I posted.

Not much to talk about, random shit going on again. Life sucks and I feel like I went to square 1 again. Can't get hold of my shrink and other doctor wants to talk to her fast. Bleh. Figures just when I got off the case I need to go back in therapy again.

I just want to sleep now, but I cant. *Joy*

Dasha <3

Bad day

Today I am not feeling well, my back has been hurting for a week now. And the headache wont stop.
I wished I was in bed sleeping.

Dont feel like doing anything at all. Today is a sucky day.

WoTG: Nation on a Brink

:D so cool. Aquila is my fav of the baddies atm lol. *point Hume Purple Mage*

Dasha in limbo ; ;

Yesterday I came home from work and saw a delivery notice of TNT about Dasha. I hate it when they come during working hours now I need to wait another day for her *sob*. Customs is € 134,- *shakes fist* damn you!!!!

Took Ratjes with my to have dinner at mums, She seems less scared now.

FFXI: We claimed Faffers and I got N.Head for my warrior. Then we proceeded to do the last BCNM for Wings of the Godess. Wiped first round lol and 2nd round we won with some coaching of Picka. Was easy fight if you know how LOL! Then we trio'd 2x Lamia No.13 to get the final points I needed for my Pahluwan body (sp.) Will post SS later I am at work now LOL!

About Wing of the Goddess mission WOW! I love the storyline. That human purple mage is an ass lol but a cute one xD. Posting SS later. Spoiler danger but idc hehe.

Dragoon luv <3

This is a old SS of me when I was leveling my dragoon, still level 71 =___=. Get of your arse and level it you lazy bum!

D: so many chars on WoW

After I level a job for a while I lose interest in it and I make a new char. I wonder how long my dwarf will last xD.

Bleh monday - Bummer day

I will post what I did over the weekend when I get home because I made some screenshots (per request of friend Ben :D)

Currently I am at work. And I have not much to do T____________T. How am I going to fill 6 hours to get atleast 90% productivity xD

I love my work (the activities I do) I just dislike some peeps at this place.

Let me sketch it out for you.

Miss. Witch works only 3 days a week. She is old fashioned and grumpy. Smokes a lot during boss' time. And likes to gossip about everyone. She drove all the other people away who were taking over her work for the other 2 days.

Miss. Emo also works 3 days weeks. She whines about her kids 24/7 while they have no manners at all and lose control whenever she brings them to the office. She is nice tho I just wished she would be less whiney. Miss. Emo doesnt like Miss. Holler.

Miss. Spy works one a different departmant but she is shacked up with us. She acts like she likes you but she talks behind your back. I dont trust her at all. She even wrote something nasty in my xmas card about my depression. She doesnt believe I have it. Everything she hears here she will pass to miss. Wannabe Director.

Miss. A & Mr. E, I love them. They are my best friends in this office.

Miss. Holler, sweet lady but her volume button dropped off when it was totally open lol. She doesnt like Miss. Emo.

Rest of the office I am happy I dont have to deal with much. I love my oldest boss and the 2 grumpy old men xD. They make me laugh.

My newest boss, Mr. Horney is weird beyond everything. He loves blonde haired women and he needs to mention breasts all the time. I think he is a creep. Luckily I am not his type xD.

Me, sometimes I say painfull remarks lol or growl at people when I feel bad. The people I love make it bearable. But I dont feel at home here.